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FREE Sacred Plant Webinar

Hello Friends,

cannabis_the_future_of_medicinePlease join me in listening to this free webinar about the healing potentials of this sacred plant – which should be easily available to us all:

https://thesacredplant.com/docuseries/?ref=c805cd1f-60a5-415d-81a3-0b99756e2e19

  • one presentation each day for seven days, with each presentation available for 24 hours.

I’ve participated in this sort of educational experience many times in the last years, and find this a very generous offering – always TOP-quality researchers and presenters, which I can attend for free, on my schedule, even while doing other things.

I hope you enjoy this as well.  And please share your thoughts about it in comments below.

I’ll be listening – I hope and assume – from a forest location….  Talk with you soon.

Love and healing to us all ~

Jean


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Excellent New Video on MKULTRA

There is so much healing in bringing secrets into the light.

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Well-written, well-delivered, with powerful visuals, without hyperbole or excess drama, documented, historical, contemporary, comprehensive in scope, covering efficiently all that can be covered in an hour, and covering it fairly, as far as I can say, as one who is a subject.

Total Mind Control, a new documentary, by Jay Myers

I’m so gratified to see the secret drama of my life brought into the light.  So gratified.

Please watch and share.

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It’s the time of the Revealing….

 


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Healing vs Computer Energy

Greetings to Everyone following the Garden Healing Church (aka MK Healing Church) ~

I want to acknowledge that I have not posted on this site as I expected I would.

therapyInstead, I’ve realized that my wounded parts (whom I’d prefer keep their writing on ParadigmSalon.net instead) are the ones who most like to write; my healthier, happier parts engaged in healing work are not that interested in sitting at the keyboard!

But that leaves me not fulfilling what Good I think I can do given my situation.  I don’t want to only post about my fearful and exasperating experiences; I want to also post about healing.  But when life is going well, I am not interested in sitting in front of the computer.  The computer feels like something to avoid.

10e503bd-f7b6-43c4-a748-71974c54d4e2The result is that I have an online presence that is mostly fearful, irritated, angry, and ready to leave this life.  My “garden presence,” on the other hand, is happy.  But she’s completely uninterested in sitting at the keyboard – unless I tell myself for months that I must create some balance, and then I sit down as I am now and make myself write.

But now that I’m here, I don’t know what to say.  Except maybe this:  the computer, energetically, is not a good place to find healing.  You can find information and, if you’re lucky, hints about coping and healing.  But it’s not, over all, a good place to spend our lives or search for health.  I’m trying to spend less and less time here.

I am also tired of trying to relate to imaginary people around the globe.  I think it’s best for all of us to work, instead, to relate to the real-life people around us in our communities – which is where I hope to spend more of my time and where I hope to offer my knowledge to others – face to face.

imageIf you know me locally, please ask me what I have to share – or specific questions.  If you don’t know me locally, then I hope you will seek out healing connections in your local community.  Connections with people, and with plants, and animals, and stars, and of course your cosmic Helpers.

For these few minutes I can stand to be at this keyboard, that’s the best advice I can give.  Live locally.

And when you do sit down at the computer to search for help (I still do now and then), I hope you’ll find useful items here or on ParadigmSalon.net.

You can also ask for specific help too, of course, and I’ll do my best to respond.  Peace.


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Moon Week Calendar – Mind Healing?

Almanac with celtic cross envisioned by Jean, drawn by Asante Riverwind

Hey Ya’ll,

I should have reminded you sooner, but I’ve been pushing myself with too much, and this one nearly slipped by:

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I’ve written in the past about the Gregorian Calendar being a fundamental part of our mind control, separating us from nature, as well as instilling the imbalance of 5-2, 5-2, 5-2 (weighted heavily to work and against freedom), into our psyches.  The moon used to encourage a much slower flowing of energies:  14/15…14/15…14/15…14/15.  Slower, and with pulsing balance.

Back in 2003, I published my first Almanac Datebook Journal, which got awesome responses from around the country, even though I only sold it in southern Arizona.  And I sold them out for two years running.  And people said they wanted to make local versions in their state, and I said Great!  And others asked when I was going to produce the next one or told me I had to take it national.  I wanted to keep it local – and I didn’t have the energy to produce another one till ten years later!

Jean & AlmanacAll four I’ve actually thrown together in a month or two, knowing every time I should have started sooner – so there is plenty of room for design improvements.

And recently I’ve realized:  Of course!  It should be a collective effort!

But I’m a hermit.  And I get overwhelmed by too much input too easily.  So my brain didn’t go there.  (There’s already a lot going on in this brain of mine.)

So I realized I should put it out to the community and see if anyone wants to help polish the design and produce the next one.  I look forward to hearing from you if you do.

Almanac with celtic cross envisioned by Jean, drawn by Asante Riverwind

Second:  Last year’s calendar included a template and instructions for producing perpetual calendars!  So no one has to do any designing except for their very own!  Maybe if a number of women and men make their own and then contemplate improvements throughout the year, we can put together a really nice product next year!

As soon as I can, I’ll upload the perpetual calendar pages and instructions to the Almanac site.  Just drag the pages to your desktop, and print!

Even if you have another calendar already.  It could be healing, or at least interesting, to work with both and see how we feel.

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(I should have written about this a month or two ago!  I’m bummed I’ve been taking on too much at times.

(I’m addressing that now, and I wrote about in my last blog on ParadigmSalon.net.)

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Oh, yeah, some might wonder why we need anything other than We’Moon.  I like We’Moon a lot, but I want to see and feel my moon weeks before my eyes, rather than have them wrap around the stable Gregorian weeks.  So my Almanacs have the Gregorian weeks wrap around the stable moon weeks, and each two-page spread works its way toward the next moon phase – new, waxing half, full, or waning half.   It’s very satisfying.  I also need more space for notes – I’ve used the calendar for notes on gardening, native harvesting, astronomy,  people’s history, local events, addresses and phone numbers, movies people tell me I should see, music I should hear, so I designed it to be half journaling pages.  Finally, because it’s simple black and white, it can be produced very easily, ecologically, and economically in a few formats:  large, small, spiral bound, notebook style, etc.  ;}

Also, I only realized as I was almost ready to print that there is no reason to exclude male artists, so I added “and men” up above.  I’ve just been sensitized about this recently, as I wrote about in an essay I’ll post soon on ParadigmSalon.net, “Friday Foundation:  On violence, past lives, womb wounds, and what it means.”

The most important part of these Almanacs is seeing the cycles of your life in a frame of the cycles of the moon.  It feels just… so… good.

Blessed day and night to you ~

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I Quit! (Doesn’t that feel good?!)

“Too many inspirations” has long been my excuse, as well as my pride, but a couple of months ago, I said, “I quit!” and I really, truly did quit quite a few things:
~ I quit my home and yard design business.
~ I quit singing.
~ I hardly planted anything in the garden.
~ And more I’ll spare you.

What I decided to do was two things:  1) Pay primary attention to healing – figuring out how to monitor my wandering, easily-distractable mind, meditate, pay attention to the communications of my alters and their healing status, stay focused on my “big questions,” track my progress, etc. – and 2) write about it.  That’s all I would do, besides the necessary mundane work.

I was due to get my first Social Security check, and Greg was willing to take up the slack while I practiced this discipline for some unknown length of time – Thank you, Greg!

So I’ve been monitoring, listening, focusing and tracking since early August – applying effective business skills to my head – and writing about it in my various blogs.  (Details here.)

And exciting things are happening!  I’m noticing phenomenal changes in my ability to track my own ideas more coherently, also feeling more calm, alert, and present – a powerful experience for me.

And just what I’d hoped for.

But there was a surprise too:  Singing, which I’d always felt was the least of my talents is the one thing that has come back to me.

After six weeks of leaving the house when Greg and other musicians would get together, he drew me back for a single song, and then “just a few,” and then one night he led the band in a whole series of my favorite songs, and I just couldn’t leave.  And here’s the surprise:  I liked my voice.  It had changed.

That, plus the fact that so many people challenged my decision and told me they wanted to keep hearing our harmonies gave me permission to accept singing back into my life.

As they say, “If you let it go and if it returns, it’s yours.”

So:  I accept.  Gratefully.  And I enjoy it so much more now that I’ve discovered my voice is new.

lying here video stillA few days ago (Oct 3), Greg and I were singing and I spontaneously suggested we go into the office and record one of our co-written originals, “Lying Here with You,” with the minimalist PhotoBooth software on the Mac.  Not fancy recording equipment by a long shot – but, wouldn’t you know, it was heart-felt, and got heart-warming responses on Greg’s website and Facebook page.

So I invite you to take a listen.  It’s sensuous and sweet.

Maybe we should all just quit things now and then.  And see what comes back.

GR.com snapshotOne more thing I was hoping for, but not too hopefully:  teaching Greg to do more of his marketing!  But that came back to me too!  I spent all day Sunday – 15 hours! – happily updating it – and it wasn’t work – it was artwork, and very satisfying.  (Greg kept me fed, and responded to my every need while I worked.)  Here’s the new design.   

I pray all our activities are exactly what we should be doing, and if we have any doubts that we have the Courage to Quit – at least for a while, to see what returns.

Many happy returns!


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Limits to Cannabis Consumption

Lest I be thought a naive advocate of cannabis for any purpose (because I’ve reposted a few good articles I’ve found), I’d like to share two thoughts on limits, one my own limits, and a post by the Marijuana Policy Project (MPP) – http://www.mpp.org).

Recently, because I’m healing (or attempting to heal) from MKULTRA  mind control, I designed a notebook/journal specifically for my needs, including daily check sheets in which I track numerous small things that I typically lose track of:  how much sleep I get, my dreams, how I feel from day to day, whether I remember my supplements, and much more, including ideas I think are break-throughs, which I also typically “forget” or am controlled to forget – who knows, unless I get more serious about working to track them!  (I’ve described the notebook/journal and its use more completely on my ParadigmSalon site:  http://paradigmsalon.net/2014/09/29/saved-by-my-journalnotebook/

One of the items I track is when and how often I use cannabis.  I have a highly sensitive system and believe cannabis (at least much of what’s locally available) is detrimental to my logical, rational mind’s functioning; therefore, I do not use it when driving, socializing, or doing daily chores.  I do find, though, that it is excellent medicine for solving problems, for instance, in meditation and in writing, so I limit my use to those times or similar times when a “wandering,” relaxed mind is useful.  And I have committed to writing in my journal every single time I have a hit.  That way I know how well I’m sticking to my commitment, and the tracking practice is a good inhibitor, making me as responsible as I think I should be.

Recently, when Colorado legalized marijuana, a reporter made the news when she overindulged in a pot brownie.  The Marijuana Policy Project (http://www.mpp.org) today posted a blog that links to a site called “Consume Responsibly” (http://www.consumeresponsibly.org).  There is a lot of good information there, and I hope folks will check it out and pass it on.


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No longer a shamanic practitioner

imagesI mean no disrespect to shamanic practitioners, but I have just become aware of how unproductive, and maybe spiritually vulnerable, that attempted practice has been for me.  Yesterday, I stood at my alter, before an overwhelming clutter of totems of various animals that have played a significant role in my life, many totems of some of them, and felt a cacophony of guilt in my head for not being more disciplined about staying in connection with each of them, as is supposedly my responsibility if I want to accept their gifts.  But I have failed in that responsibility again and again.

Yeshiva - (I meant to write, and thought I wrote "Yeshua," but I wrote this interesting derivation!  Wonder where that came from….

Yeshiva – (I meant to write, and thought I wrote “Yeshua,” but I wrote this interesting derivation! Wonder where that came from….

And I had tremendous guilt about not acknowledging Yeshua more, whom I consider my spiritual leader, my tribal chief – but I hate the images of him painted in our culture by obnoxious evangelists and corrupt doctrine-writers, so unlike my image of him as the counter-culture, anti-materialist, love and peace prophet.  And since the foundation of my programming was done in churches with all that other religious iconography and his “name” – JEEZ-suz – being used (American South rendering of the Greek translation of his Hebrew name).  (And I’ll save for later the story of how a “Christian” church helped my abusive husband take my kids from me for two years.)   So my picture of Yeshua has him in a lotus pose, in saffron robes, flowers in a necklace, surrounded by lotus flowers, his heart open, wounded and shining, a crown of thorns on his head, a halo, a hand sign of peace, a gesture to the heart, and a look of calm sincerity.  (It came from a magazine cover, and I’ll appreciate if anyone can help me with the source – I’d like to credit it and the artist.)

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I also like this portrait of him. His counsel regarding prayer: “Pray alone.” I like that. Feels most real to me.

So yesterday, I stood before my altar, hands at prayer pose, namaste, feeling very real with him, confused about who I am and how I’m doing, a racket of other voices – or my imagination of them – telling me I’m a bad shamanic practitioner and I can’t keep up any discipline.  Suddenly, I realized I didn’t have to.  Yes, I’d really believed I was strong enough to accept the shamanic initiation invitation, and I’d told myself, “Once the doors are opened, you can’t shut them” – and that’s true – but I had assumed that that meant I had to use those shamanic practices to keep my bearings in that world.  Suddenly I realized that, even though I was invited, and that means the doors have been opened, I don’t have to play by their rules, i.e., shamanism.  Yes, I’ve had many amazing, sublime shamanic experiences, but I don’t feel the need to sit in counsel with animal spirits.  I believe the animal spirits, trees spirits, insect spirits, and all the elementals and devas and intelligences of every sort in this Ocean of Spirit can come to my aid, and they will when called, but I will take my counsel in prayer with Yeshua.  And I realized all those totems were way to much visual noise.  I kept a few things to remind me of special events, but those very few are scattered now around the house.  My eagle feather hangs in a tree, where it probably likes it better.  And Yeshua is uncrowded in the center of my wall.

Oh, my Lord, I can’t tell you what an energy rush that was to remove everything!!  Once I began, it was like an avalanche:  many, many items now sit out in the sunroom awaiting separation into piles of gifts, piles of things to throw away, and things to sell.  (I’m not assuming these things are wrong for someone else, and thereby am recycling them for someone else’s life lessons.)  The clearing in here is palpable!

Last night, we talked about some things I’d thought we’d never be able to face, but we did.  We hardly slept last night,  both racked to our souls, and today we both feel clean and clear and dedicated to love and creative living.  What a relief!

At one point I sobbed, “I feel like I’ve been in a balloon, tossed around in a harrowing storm for 21 years, and I just touched ground safely.

Another image appeared of an abscess lanced, gaping open, being flushed out.  Relief.

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March 9, 2016:  I still relate, for the most part, to this blog, though I don’t close the door on the possibility of returning to the practice in a new form.  Not yet.