Paul Levy is a fascinating author, delving both philosophically and personally into territory so interesting and critical to those of us dealing with things that feel EVIL in the extreme.

I’ll admit that there are times when I wonder if this is extremely clever disinformation, philosophy leading us toward “no judgement” of what we want to call evil.  But in the end, I feel comfortable that he’s actually articulated a philosophical basis for what I have been doing intuitively.  I’m still musing….

And I’d love to hear all your comments!

Good to remember …

I think I’ll take down this site.  Even if it helps people, or we think it does, it might also further tether that person to the computer as if it’s the source of Help.

Our Source is outside, and inside, but… not in the screen, except occasionally, if we’re lucky.

Let’s go to our communities of friends, plants, animals, and Others.

Bye ~

Yesterday’s post was accidental – I meant to do more editing first.

Having made the mistake, I stayed up late last night to edit more of this site and re-edit my Spiritual History of mind control, secret societies, shamanic initiation, and so much more.  

If you haven’t read it in awhile, it’s a mind-blowing story – to me and everyone else who’s told me they read it.  Now it’s better written, a tighter synopsis of my 258-page book, here in just a few pages.

If your spiritual life is also beyond your best reckoning/rationality, let’s compare stories, loosen the cultural strictures, expand our minds, and see what we might learn together about our amazing, and sometimes terrifying, multi-dimensional world:

https://gardenhealingchurch.org/jean/spiritual-history/

I apologize that my site has remained in “rough draft” condition for so long!  Today, I rewrote a number of pages, some of them significantly.

I was also (immodestly) impressed by the information I’ve gathered here – and I want to invite you to spend a little time to re-read some of the pages.  They are easier to read now, with streamlined language and some great art, if I say so myself!

I also welcome comments on how to improve this site and help me provide what would be most useful.  More sets of eyes and feedback will be much appreciated!

One of the pages I rewrote this evening is the page about myself:

I never wanted to be a “minister” particularly, though the word only means servant, and that’s what my life has been about, as I’ve worked to create peace, social justice, community radio stations, educate on domestic violence, environmental sustainability, etc.

I pursued a ministry certificate purely because it was recommended when I became a Transpersonal Hypnotherapist  in 2006, to provide legal protection while practicing the skill in a slow-moving state that hasn’t developed protocols for certifying practitioners yet.

I am also a recovering mind control subject (probably MKULTRA), a multiple-personality-in-healing, an award-winning journalist and author, business consultant, public speaker, Permaculture designer, and shamanic practitioner.

As I’ve healed aspects of my multiple personality disorder in the last two decades, I’ve lost much of my super-productivity, but gained peace, relieved health issues, fulfilled artistic inclinations, developed a sense of humor, increased social skills, and attracted more friends than ever in my life.

I still have events in which I struggle for hope to stay alive, and want to encourage others that, despite difficult spells, there is hope.

My psychic abilities, clear to me since childhood, may have been the reason I was chosen as a MK subject (a theory reported by others) and/or it may have been enhanced by mind control.  (The original Nazi MK experimenters were very involved in dark spiritualism and were interested in the psychic abilities in their subjects.)

At age 19, in 1971, I had an experience in which I felt I “knew Jesus in my bones” and have continued to feel his presence throughout my life, sometimes in miraculous ways, even after decades of calling myself an atheist, pagan, pantheist, animist, shamanic practitioner, etc.

At age 42, in 1994, having moved to a desert hermitage, I began to see the Mystery in a way that led me into shamanic practice, which involved connecting with multi-dimensional Helpers, travel in other dimensions, past-life recollections, communications with the deceased, healings, and more.  

In February 2014, I was newly moved by Martin Luther King‘s ministry, and the conjunction of both his religious and activist work.

Suddenly I saw the parallel between Civil Rights movement and the yet-unimagined fight for the rights of MK subjects, and felt I was finally close to taking up activism again, in the service of freedom for mind control subjects.

I next learned about Black Elk‘s early spiritual experiences, how he kept them a secret from everyone, and so “demons” wouldn’t leave him alone, and he became isolated, and his tribe thought him “angry and strange.”  Eventually, he told his experiences to the elders, and they recognized his situation:  the demons would continue to hound him until he accepted his calling.

Dark forces seem to have been dogging my life since childhood, but they seemed to be getting more aggressive in the last few years, sabotaging even beloved endeavors.  Immediately, I knew that I’d known I was called to do something more difficult than the other activities I’d chosen, but I simply didn’t want to do it.  I’d tried, and thought I’d failed.  So I had given up.

The work I’d felt called to do was to speak out about the plight of MK subjects – slaves if any are – and our human rights and religious freedom rights to heal ourselves.

And the right to speak about experiences in other dimensions without being called delusional and being medicated or locked up.

When the shamanic experiences began, like it or not, they included UFOs and aliens – just like mystics have throughout time.

After reading about Black Elk, I renewed my vows to serve our human and Earth community, regardless that I didn’t want to step forward with ridiculed themes of mind control and a highly- and weirdly-populated cosmos.

I’ve been slow (extremely cautious) in determining the best direction for this work, but the energies are still stirring….

I pray this site is a place to protect and expand our healing options, while providing specific help for healing on our often lonely paths.

More about my life of writing, activism, consulting, art, and more can be found at jeaneisenhower.com.  My Spiritual History is here.

“… I remain left with two understandings:

Always on the lookout for help for myself and others, I subscribe to a lot of blogs and today one came through that struck a chord.

(Perhaps the whole thing needn’t be read, as it’s directed to clinicians, but here it is: http://ayearinthelifeofptsd.com/2015/06/14/to-every-clinician-with-ptsd-and-did-clients/)

The point, for me, is that we DID/Multiple/PTSD folks are terribly isolated, and we need to work hard to change that fact.

While I’ve learned how to act somewhat “normal” when I choose to go out and socialize, that doesn’t make me feel less isolated.  Sometimes I feel more isolated afterward, because all the nice “connections” were with people connecting with the false front I construct.

Very few people know the struggles of my everyday life, probably because I’m “high-functioning.”  Well, if I am, then I ought to use my gifts to organize for others what we all need.

What we need are support groups.  These are, of course, not a new idea at all, but there are very few for people with DID and PTSD – who aren’t veterans.

So I’m setting an intention right now to create a support group in my local community.  If you live local to me, please let me know if you’re interested.  Your interest will help me keep the intention alive, and we’ll get going asap.

If you live elsewhere, perhaps you can start a group or ask a therapist to help you get one started or to start one for you.

Time to reclaim as much power as we can.

Strength, love, and blessings to us all.

Jean

PS  Legally, any group can get together for support without a counselor, though a counselor can be highly useful.  I’m not a certified clinician in New Mexico, but I am a minister which gives me counseling rights, and I may renew my Transpersonal Hypnotherapy certificate to double my legal credentials for convening a group.  Having been in a sexual abuse support group 20 years ago, and different sorts of therapy off-and-on for much of my life, I’ve discovered I have a lot to offer friends in healing crises – as do we all, I suspect – at least a compassionate heart.  Not to over-imagine our capabilities, of course, but as humans with heart, we do have a lot to offer each other.

Perhaps someone might want to weigh in on some of the legal concerns?  (I’m well aware that as a minister and certified hypnotherapist, I have more responsibilities than others, which I won’t bog down this blog with, and which I will review carefully before beginning – but comments along this line, even warnings, are welcome.)

I just went online to learn the name of this painting by Pablo Amaringo (couldn’t find it), and when I saw the extent of his work, including portals like I used to see as a child, and these spaceships outside his home, snakes in every painting, and the natural world bursting with life, multi-dimensional life of every sort, I thought, “His artwork could tell my life story.”

He could tell the same story I tell, and attract people, whereas my story, in words, scares people away.  I think it’s the color, bursting into life on a background of black, that encourages us that we’ll survive.

That’s the blessing of the fanciful right brain.  Words of the left brain, black on white, rational, strung along one after another, a two-dimensional world trying to describe the ineffable multi-dimensional world.  No wonder they fail.  What a tragedy for a writer, or any artist in the wrong medium.

http://www.ewao.com/a/senate-passes-bill-allowing-veterans-access-to-medical-marijuana/