I apologize that my site has remained in “rough draft” condition for so long! Today, I rewrote a number of pages, some of them significantly.
I was also (immodestly) impressed by the information I’ve gathered here – and I want to invite you to spend a little time to re-read some of the pages. They are easier to read now, with streamlined language and some great art, if I say so myself!
I also welcome comments on how to improve this site and help me provide what would be most useful. More sets of eyes and feedback will be much appreciated!
One of the pages I rewrote this evening is the page about myself:
I never wanted to be a “minister” particularly, though the word only means servant, and that’s what my life has been about, as I’ve worked to create peace, social justice, community radio stations, educate on domestic violence, environmental sustainability, etc.
I pursued a ministry certificate purely because it was recommended when I became a Transpersonal Hypnotherapist in 2006, to provide legal protection while practicing the skill in a slow-moving state that hasn’t developed protocols for certifying practitioners yet.
I am also a recovering mind control subject (probably MKULTRA), a multiple-personality-in-healing, an award-winning journalist and author, business consultant, public speaker, Permaculture designer, and shamanic practitioner.
As I’ve healed aspects of my multiple personality disorder in the last two decades, I’ve lost much of my super-productivity, but gained peace, relieved health issues, fulfilled artistic inclinations, developed a sense of humor, increased social skills, and attracted more friends than ever in my life.
I still have events in which I struggle for hope to stay alive, and want to encourage others that, despite difficult spells, there is hope.
My psychic abilities, clear to me since childhood, may have been the reason I was chosen as a MK subject (a theory reported by others) and/or it may have been enhanced by mind control. (The original Nazi MK experimenters were very involved in dark spiritualism and were interested in the psychic abilities in their subjects.)
At age 19, in 1971, I had an experience in which I felt I “knew Jesus in my bones” and have continued to feel his presence throughout my life, sometimes in miraculous ways, even after decades of calling myself an atheist, pagan, pantheist, animist, shamanic practitioner, etc.
At age 42, in 1994, having moved to a desert hermitage, I began to see the Mystery in a way that led me into shamanic practice, which involved connecting with multi-dimensional Helpers, travel in other dimensions, past-life recollections, communications with the deceased, healings, and more.
In February 2014, I was newly moved by Martin Luther King‘s ministry, and the conjunction of both his religious and activist work.
Suddenly I saw the parallel between Civil Rights movement and the yet-unimagined fight for the rights of MK subjects, and felt I was finally close to taking up activism again, in the service of freedom for mind control subjects.
I next learned about Black Elk‘s early spiritual experiences, how he kept them a secret from everyone, and so “demons” wouldn’t leave him alone, and he became isolated, and his tribe thought him “angry and strange.” Eventually, he told his experiences to the elders, and they recognized his situation: the demons would continue to hound him until he accepted his calling.
Dark forces seem to have been dogging my life since childhood, but they seemed to be getting more aggressive in the last few years, sabotaging even beloved endeavors. Immediately, I knew that I’d known I was called to do something more difficult than the other activities I’d chosen, but I simply didn’t want to do it. I’d tried, and thought I’d failed. So I had given up.
The work I’d felt called to do was to speak out about the plight of MK subjects – slaves if any are – and our human rights and religious freedom rights to heal ourselves.
And the right to speak about experiences in other dimensions without being called delusional and being medicated or locked up.
When the shamanic experiences began, like it or not, they included UFOs and aliens – just like mystics have throughout time.
After reading about Black Elk, I renewed my vows to serve our human and Earth community, regardless that I didn’t want to step forward with ridiculed themes of mind control and a highly- and weirdly-populated cosmos.
I’ve been slow (extremely cautious) in determining the best direction for this work, but the energies are still stirring….
I pray this site is a place to protect and expand our healing options, while providing specific help for healing on our often lonely paths.