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Grateful for Healing in Nature – for all of us mind control subjects

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“Happy” – wonderful film!

ed3I recently discovered “Happy” (a movie available to watch at this link).

Winner of many awards, it investigates what makes people happy – all over the world – and is stunning in the beauty and simplicity which make some people quite content and happy with their lives – with some huge surprises.

One of those surprises relates to the issues we’re all interested in here: abuse and lost memories recovered, and healing!  That’s all I’ll say.  It’s good for the heart.  Please watch it.

Love to you all in the New Year,


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They Lie: a meditation on humans and predation, capitalism, ancient history, and hope for the future


(This represents my most pessimistic thoughts I have now and then, which I turn around to find a sliver of hope in all this craziness.  Perhaps you feel the same sometimes?)

They lie.  Constantly.

We live with the lies, and pretend.

But wait.  That’s not as outrageous as it sounds.

That’s the way of all Nature.  Predators and prey continually “lie” to each other.  Mother birds feign a broken wing as they pretend to struggle, to draw a predator away from their nests before flying to safety.  Both predators and prey pretend to be other than what they are:  shadows, sticks, rocks, a poisonous bug.

Bankers pretend to be our friends.  We pretend to be richer or poorer than we are.  We pretend to be happy, love our work, and like everyone we see.  We lie.

They lie.

Are we all like predators and prey?  Yes.

images-7But how far do we take this?  What about those bankers?  What about those people controlling and poisoning the water, poisoning the air, forcing “terminator genes” into food genetics, cutting down the rainforest as fast as they can, locking up record numbers of citizens into work prisons, torturing, letting the infrastructure of our nation (and others’) deteriorate, manufacturing enough bombs to destroy the world many times over, poisoning the soil, even poisoning the aquifers with fracked waste liquids, and all the other destruction and efforts toward total control we witness?

It’s as if there were a liquidation operation in progress on Earth.  Like… “Earth First!  We’ll mine Venus next” isn’t a joke.

Like the Annunaki (“people who came from above”) – the Sumerian gods who created us to work in their mines – have given orders to extract the last of what they can get on the planet and assure no humans will survive for long here after they pull out.  Doesn’t it look like that?

The Sumerian history and Biblical history both tell of gods (or God) who wanted to do away with humans, which they were so tired of trying to control.  (Read the stories of the Flood.)  Both Jehovah and the Sumerian brother, Enlil, begrudgingly allowed the few humans to survive, but only under the terms that the God/god would shorten the lives of humans, giving them less time to develop wisdom to pass on to succeeding generations.  A crude form of mind control – by people from the stars.

Seems like a similar story is playing out now, only the gods are using malnutrition, mal-education, drugs, and entertainment to make us docile.  It’s possible they’ve also decided we’ve had a long enough reprieve, we’re still too troublesome, and so it’s time to finish up the Earth/human project.  Sometimes it seems like the only explanation for the insanity of destroying the environment and controlling and poisoning the food and water sources, and compromising every one of our basic survival needs:  air, water, food, soil, community, not to mention human intelligence.  Sometimes I just can’t see it any other way.

So what will come of us?

jan20113-300x226On this plane, I sometimes feel I must yield.  I’m 62.  And I’m not really interested in surviving under the predicted conditions.  I’m far more interested in the other dimensions I visit in altered states, and the family there I’ve felt part of since I was a child.

And I don’t really mourn, any more, what seems to be the liquidation of Earth and ending of human life as we know it (even predicted directly to me by some mysterious force I’ve described on, but don’t want to believe).

For years, or decades, I’ve fought to turn the tide, and occasionally mourned it, but I think I’m over it now.  So much destruction – witnessed and fought for and lost – eventually sinks in.

GaiaJosephineWallDespite the best efforts of peace activists, community gardeners, Permaculture designers, and other conscious and good-hearted people, I think it’s right that this capitalist effort hits the compost heap.  Humans deserve better, and I think we’ve all learned our lesson.

But all’s not lost!  Conscious people can take their good efforts now to the next level – maybe another dimension of this Earth?  That’s a hopeful thought.

OR, maybe all the global problems we’re so aware of, with statistics that have been looming over us, threatening for years to grow to catastrophic levels that seem absolutely impossible to repair – but maybe it’s not impossible, but only looks that way because of reporting.

Sure, there are flammable water taps, and record levels of acidity in the ocean, and growing numbers of children and adults on psychopharmaceutical drugs and brain-numbing chemical food, and… and… and…, but maybe there are also other aspects to the problems we’re unaware of, like extra-dimensional help quietly working in the background.  Sound crazy?  Well, they’re doing something here, and it doesn’t seem to be obviously hurting us yet, so maybe they’re helping??

Lest this seem like silly wishful thinking, let me remind certain readers that UFOs have been documented interfering with nuclear rocket launches (yes, they have!) and have even been seen entering threatening volcanos and apparently quieting them down.  (Not to say that all “aliens” are on our side, but at least some seem to be.  I fully believe there’s more to the UFO/alien story than any of us can know.  And, rather than assuming it’s all good or all to our detriment, or all meaningless, perhaps we can take hope that some of it is working for our survival.)

thumbnail_2_c9aaf3fc_v2And then there are the unexpectedly catalyzed movements of people suddenly springing up to challenge oppression where there’s never been opposition before!  Yeah!

Back to the horrors:  Capitalism, to my mind, should have been predicted from the very start to bring us horrors like mind control, sex slave industries, child sex slave industries, snuff films, and all the other horrors that wealthy psychopaths are willing to pay for.  Capitalism rewarded them and, organized in crime, nothing could control them, because money was made the un-challengeable bottom line, the driving force that nothing could control.  Nice theory, guys.  (Perfect example of language and perverse logic overriding the heart.)

Money-ism (Capitalism).  One day we’ll wonder that we could ever say that word without a grimace or shame.

It deserves to fall, needs to fall, and seems about to fall.  If the rulers are not engineering the great collapse, I believe it’ll crash of its own inflated overreach – or if they’re clever, they might pull out of here just before it does, and I’m sure they believe they’re clever and will try.

TV watchersMeantime, all I can do is witness and try to help others suffering with the thing I understand the best – mind control.

And pray my family on other dimensions helps me cross to another dimension where things are not as insane as they are here.

Or, maybe the Earth may one day become that place.  It seems a far more difficult task than a few conscious humans can deal with now, but I suspect we do have help in high places.

Now, some would assert that the predatory liars are necessary to our human (prey) evolution.  As prey, we will only evolve if we can raise our awareness and outwit their sly maneuvers.  That’s a challenge to rise to, isn’t it?

It’s an amazing time to be alive on Earth, as whistleblower to lies, worker against the lies, and witness as the lies are exposed, and our amazing planetary, human race story unfolds – with us as the main players.

Here we are! – at “the end of the world,” it often seems.  What role shall we play?



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Reprint: “Defy the Government, Smoke Pot, Get Rich!”

Reprinted from Liberty Briefing – certainly smarmy in tone, but on point, makes me smile:
By Jeff Siegel | Thursday, December 11th, 2014


I was always told that name-calling can destroy one’s credibility.

But I don’t care.

Andy Harris, you are a pathetic weasel!

cannabis_the_future_of_medicineIt was clear last month that Maryland representative Andy Harris was gearing up to fight the results of a vote that allowed D.C. residents the freedom to consume and grow cannabis.

It looks like he was successful.

Thanks to a congressional spending deal, the legalization of marijuana in D.C. – which voters approved back in November – will now be prohibited.

As reported in the Washington Post …

The District will be prohibited from legalizing marijuana for the much of the coming year under a spending deal reached Tuesday between top Senate Democrats and House Republicans to fund the federal government through next September.

The development — upending voter-approved Initiative 71 — shocked elected D.C. leaders, advocates for marijuana legalization and civil liberties groups who earlier in the day had grown confident that the measure would be at least partially protected while Democrats still controlled the Senate.

However, with Republicans set to take control of the chamber in January, the defeat suggested that the will of D.C. voters — who approved marijuana legalization last month by a margin of more than 2 to 1 — may be suspended indefinitely.

Interestingly, the language of the rider was almost identical to an amendment that Harris introduced this past summer.

It Just Doesn’t Matter

Following the announcement of the deal, Harris said that it would show fairly broad-based support in Congress against legalization. Which, of course, is complete bullshit. The only consensus here is that once again, the folks in congress are so caught up in partisan slave-trading that they have no time to honor the wishes and demands of the people.

Overwhelmingly, voters in DC approved the measure to legalize. They played by the rules, went through the appropriate channels and now they’re being told that none of that matters. That their votes don’t matter. That they don’t matter.

Harris also told reporters that he had no qualms about interfering. Indeed, he clearly has no qualms with denying U.S. citizens the right to peacefully medicate and recreate on their own terms.

Do no Harm

Earlier this year, Harris made the following statement …

When I became a physician, I took an oath to do no harm, and decriminalizing marijuana will harm D.C. residents, especially youth. That’s why I took steps to stop its implementation.

Yes, because clearly the war on drugs has been so effective at keeping folks safe.  Especially youth.

How many more people have to die in this war on drugs before guys like Andy Harris get it? How many more Americans have to be hauled off to jail? How much longer do we have to abide by the dictatorial wishes of bureaucratic buffoons before we realize that they do not own us?

And by the way, Harris’ actions further support the unconstitutional war on drugs. Since he did swear an oath to support and defend the constitution against all enemies, foreign and domestic, isn’t he in violation of that oath? Wouldn’t that be grounds for dismissal?

Personal Sovereignty

Of course, it’s not just Andy Harris that continues to trivialize personal sovereignty. After all, there were plenty of other lawmakers, including a gaggle of “liberal” democrats that quietly went along with the whole thing. But I’m calling him out because he’s really just been such a dick about it. And especially because he keeps reciting that same old bullshit line about how regular recreational marijuana use impacts future economic opportunities for those who use it.


You know how many ridiculously wealthy people I know who smoke pot? Nearly all of them. Doctors, lawyers, accountants, CEOs, real estate moguls, hedge fund managers, engineers. Did I mention doctors?

And pot smoking sure as hell didn’t stop these famous folks from creating massive wealth either …

  • President Barack Obama – Net Worth: $12.2 Million
  • President George W. Bush – Net Worth: $35 Million
  • President Bill Clinton – Net Worth: $80 Million
  • Rush Limbaugh – Net Worth: $400 Million
  • Martha Stewart – Net Worth: $300 Million
  • Sarah Palin – Net Worth: $12 Million
  • Phil Jackson – Net Worth: $45 Million
  • Oprah Winfrey – Net Worth: $3 Billion
  • Hugh Hefner – Net Worth: $43 Million
  • George Soros – Net Worth: $24 Billion

Apparently, Andy Harris’ net worth comes in at about $2.8 million. Not bad. But you know what? I bet he’d be a lot richer if just smoked a little weed.


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Christ versus Christians

YeshivaAh, this issue has dogged humans for thousands of years.

Just for the record:  I try to follow Christ, but I’m not a Christian.

I have no feeling whatsoever (and didn’t, even as a young Christian and Christian minister’s wife in my 20s) for much of Christian doctrine.  I never “got,” for example, the ransom-for-our-sins business.

Rather, I believe Christ came (like other prophets) to teach people how to live without being materialistic, violent, sexist, and racist.  Now that’s a goal worthy of God – to make humans thoughtful and considerate!

Running up against the Authorities trying (as always) to herd people into Their money-spending habits and into Their money-grubbing religions was what got him killed.  He might have known it was probable or destined, but I don’t think our church-going habits of confessing “belief in him” to accept our soul-ransom by his death is what he intended.  Seems like yet more Authorities gathering souls with little soul-development but (useable) obedience.

(I could be wrong, of course, in which case I’d still rather be with people striving to be conscious than people willing to be obedient to something so tepid.)

I’m trying to live his teachings as well as I can, but I have a very hard time walking into a church (though we sang in a progressive church last year, and that was the first time in decades I agreed to even be inside a church, and then I mostly enjoyed myself and liked the people we met there).

Extra-dimensionals (and extra-terrestrials) visit our planet regularly and always have, and among those beings, many prophets have visited and taught us many important lessons about how to live.  I might have chosen any of them to follow.  I wasn’t set on choosing the prophet followed by most Americans – actually, the opposite!  I was intending to look at all the world’s religions and then choose.

But very quickly and continuing over the course of my life, I’ve had repeated experiences – to my surprise almost every time – with Christ!  Not someone who said they were Christ or Jesus, or someone who “looked like” him (as if we know), but someone whom I simply knew immediately was both Christ and someone I’ve known very well for a very long time, many lifetimes.  Someone who encouraged me that I was on the right path.

YeshivaThis picture?  I’m not attached to it.  But I like it because it busts a few stereotypes.  It’s peaceful, and even feminine.  It’s Hindu and Catholic.  It reminds me that our spiritual world is complex.  And we need to remember to seek inside.  “Pray in private,” the Teacher said.

Okay.  I will.

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Buh-bye, Obamacare! Hello, Health Care Sharing

buhbye-obamacare-hello-healthcare-sharing-image1This is reposted from
Written By:  Louise Habakus

The Affordable Care Act doesn’t work for everyone.  Here’s how to opt out of Obamacare and enroll an alternative solution.

Since leaving our corporate jobs, my husband and I have spent an obscene amount of money on health insurance that never covers … anything. On the rare occasion that I go in-network, the appointment is usually a dud … punctuated by the scripts I won’t fill, the treatments I decline, and the follow-up appointments I won’t make.

So when I took a look at what the Affordable Care Act says my family must now pay, I knew we were done. I had reached the point beyond which I will not be pushed.

When it comes to health insurance, the Habakus family is sending a pink slip to government and industry. I’ve found a solution for my family that’s also a tangible rejection of the current system.

Obamacare Doesn’t Work For Everyone

If you have individual coverage, if you had a plan that was canceled thanks to Obamacare, if you’re young, and if you’re ineligible for subsidies, then you’re probably paying a lot more.

To make matters worse, your doctor might be among the over 214,000 providers exiting the Obamacare exchanges — about 25% of all professionally active physicians.

I’ve kept our insurance this long because, well, you know … someone might need a limb reattached. But I haven’t been applying critical thinking to this decision.

Until now.

The prospect of paying twice as much for less of what I want finally got my attention — along with the knowledge that the pharma-government-insurance complex will deliver more changes that I won’t like.

But There’s a Lot More at Stake Than Money

With traditional health insurance, I wonder about entering into a situation I may really regret. Once you choose one of their “can’t-go-out-of-network” doctors and walk through those hospital doors with your child …


And make no mistake — you are no longer in charge. It’s not always possible to say, “No, thanks.” The institutional response to disagreement about health care treatment has become increasingly Draconian.

Imagine, God forbid, your child is very sick and the hospital is insisting on “lifesaving,” standard of care medical interventions that you are unwilling to pursue. The only person standing between you and a total nightmare is your physician. Now let’s assume you chose the doctor because she takes your insurance. Will you be surprised to learn that she’s not on your side?

If the hospital won’t discharge your child, you can’t leave. It happens all the time. It happened to me. Once Child Protective Services is called, you’re in big trouble. Legal medical kidnapping is a growing problem. (Tune into Fearless Parent Radio™ on December 17).


I will no longer participate in a system that incentivizes me to use health care I do not want.

I will no longer subsidize health care that conflicts so fundamentally with my values and beliefs.

I will no longer support a hidebound industry with zero innovation, bad customer service, and obscenely high executive compensation.

I no longer feel safe with traditional health insurance coverage. The dynamic has become adversarial. I want more control.

I refuse to pay one more dime into a dysfunctional, overpriced, abusive, unethical, damaging, and totally broken system for insurance coverage that I stand on my head to avoid at all costs.

Big words, but now what?

Ways to Opt Out of Obamacare

If you procrastinated like I did, then you’re probably scrambling to figure out your options. There are different ways to scrap Obamacare. It’s completely legit, but you have to do your homework. I learned that:

Huh? What’s a Health Care Sharing Ministry?

It is a cost sharing arrangement for medical expenses among people who hold similar religious beliefs. It is not insurance; no one assumes responsibility for your medical bills. It is exempt from Obamacare. There are four “grandfathered” options. Three are open to practicing Christians and one is for people committed to religious liberty.


  • Individuals and families pay a monthly share.
  • Payments are made to members with approved medical bills.
  • Members adhere to certain lifestyle guidelines, including abstention from tobacco and illegal drugs, and sign a statement of faith or belief.
  • Certain expenses may be excluded (i.e., those associated with pre-existing conditions, preventive care, vaccinations, dental, vision, birth control, abortions, STDs, and infertility).


  • Monthly share amount
  • Extent of financial risk and maximum amount shared per medical need
  • Central payment or direct sharing to members
  • Use of in-network providers
  • Sharing for alternative treatments
  • Incentive discounts for achieving specific health goals

Why We Chose Samaritan Ministries

Samaritan Ministries International is an Illinois-based not-for-profit corporation that started sharing medical needs in 1994. As of November 2014, there are 39,000 participating households with 129,500 members (up 62% in the past year).

We chose Samaritan for several reasons:

First, it’s well run. Here’s their 2012 Form 990. We spoke with current members who rave about it. I couldn’t find any online complaints. When I asked our agent for dirt on Samaritan, he mustered a feeble defense for insurance. He admitted that he’s losing customers to it: “It really works.” I love that Samaritan contracts with The Karis Group to negotiate discounts — typically 40-45% — on our behalf.

Second, it works for my family. We agree with Samaritan’s philosophy of health care and its member requirements, including regular church attendance.

Third, Samaritan’s guidelines offer more control over our health care choices. Its rules are the simplest. Members select their own doctors and hospitals, and can travel out of state for procedures. It includes visits to licensed alternative practitioners, including naturopaths. Alternative treatments and “prescriptions” are subject to an additional approval process except for cancer treatment which can be 100% alternative up to the $250,000 maximum. Samaritan is evaluating the equivalency of alternative medicine in more areas.

Finally, instead of paying Blue Cross, I’d rather be part of a community that sends checks to real people to help lift financial burdens during their time of medical need.

Samaritan is definitely not for everyone, however. Read its FAQs and Guidelines, or call 888-268-4377 #2. Here’s what I wanted to know.


The monthly share is:

  • $405 for 3+ person families
  • $360 for 2 person families
  • $250 for widowed or divorced parents with children
  • $180 for singles.

Young adults aged 25 and under pay less. There is a one-time $200 membership fee.


Members identify themselves as self-pay patients when they go to the doctor or hospital. Most providers are cash-friendly and many like avoiding insurance hassles. Sometimes cash-pay prices are lower than insurance rates.

Members are eligible to receive up to $250,000 in medical bills per qualifying event, after paying the first $300. Discounts are applied to the $300 first. Members are not terminated for having too many medical events.

When members submit medical bills, they are added to the prayer list so everyone can begin praying. After verification, Samaritan publishes qualifying needs in the monthly newsletter and then they are assigned. Each member is asked to send the full amount of his monthly share amount to a single member with an approved need, along with notes of encouragement.


Checks from members are considered gifts, but Samaritan ensures that amounts do not exceed the IRS annual gift exclusion (currently $14,000).

Missouri amended its income tax code to allow a full personal deduction of health care sharing ministry expenses. The deductibility in other states is unclear and not recommended.

This is a useful article from the Journal of Accountancy about the tax implications of religious exemptions from the health care individual mandate. Applicants should discuss concerns with their tax advisors.


The optional “Save to Share” program addresses catastrophic medical expenses. Beyond the main points listed above, this is what clinched it for my husband.

Up to one-half of available “Save to Share” funds — currently about $5.5 million — can be shared for any single qualifying need above $250,000.

Participants pay a $15 annual administrative fee and set aside an annual amount based on household size:

  • $399 for 2 parent families
  • $266 for single parent families or couples
  • $133 for individuals

No payment is made unless there is a qualifying need. The largest need during Samaritan’s 20-year history was $1.5 million; it was reduced to $750,000 through negotiations. No one in “Save to Share” has ever been cut off due to insufficient funds.


Samaritan will publish medically-necessary treatment for qualifying injury or disease ordered by a licensed practitioner. If any member, including a child with autism, has an eligible medical need, such as a concussion following an accident, the expense can be shared in the same way that the ER visit of a hemophiliac would be shared after sustaining a cut. The cause of the ER visit is the cut not the hemophilia. Ditto for a broken bone due to a fall for someone with osteoporosis.

Autism as defined in the DSM isn’t treatable, but medical conditions in autism are. So there’s no sharing for ABA, social skills, or communication deficits, but yes to colitis or Lyme disease. Detox and supplements must directly relate to the eligible medical or injury diagnosis and prescribed by the provider. Hyperbaric, physical, occupational, speech, vision, and analogous therapies related to injury or disease are publishable.

A condition is no longer pre-existing when a member has been symptom- and med-free for 12 months. Cancer is 7 years for that particular type of cancer. Type 1 diabetes and heart disease are always pre-existing. Prescription expenses for the first 120 days are shared. ADHD meds are excluded.

Providers may be asked to complete a verification form regarding pre-existing conditions.


If you’re not in “Save to Share” and your medical expenses exceed $250,000, or you have a pre-existing condition, the Special Prayer Needs ministry may be able to help. Members share on a free will offering basis. Recent medical bills for a little boy with cancer totaled $300,000; members voluntarily contributed the balance. This is based upon the extra generosity of members and cannot be relied upon.

If someone on your list stops sharing, his amount will be reassigned the following month.

If there are more medical needs than shares, Samaritan will use a prorating method. For example, if there’s enough for 90% of publishable needs in a given month, then 90% of each need will be published for that month. If prorating occurs three months in a row, Samaritan’s Board will propose a share increase.


Applicants can begin membership the day they sign up online. The first month’s share is paid by credit card and the completed application, including the pastor’s signature, is due within 10 days. Medical needs cannot be published until the form is submitted.

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Experiment in Sound Healing

Song-of-the-New-Earth-5(reposted from

Saturday afternoon, after a mild and satisfying week, I watched a video about Tom Kenyon – “Song of the New Earth” – then turned off the computer and sat back to try to “tone” for the first time in years.

didgeridooI’ve had amazing experiences with sound before, most notably when I went to hear Tuvan “throat singers” (shamans from Tuva, Siberia).  I was seated directly in front of one of the didgeridoos, it’s base angled slightly away from me, and throughout the performance I experienced energy knots in my aura explode and dissipate away with the shamans’ sounds.  Subtly, I turned, twisted, and bent to present different aspects of my energy field to the healing vibrations.

At one point in the video, Tom said something like:

“All can learn to use sound to be healers for ourselves and others.”

This, I knew, but I also knew immediately it was for me to embrace now.

When the video ended, I sat, intending to make sounds that simply felt good to me – a welcome change from “simple” meditation, which sometimes is so difficult, trying to keep a half-dozen minds quiet.

Immediately, a tone emerging from me felt like “it,” and I intuitively worked to “send it around” to different places in my head.  On my second toning, I was surprised but pleased, to hear an overtone – the thing that had seemed next to impossible for me, since I’d tried this once many years ago.  But now, my dozens of tonings resulted in two or three overtones every time after the first, and sending sounds to different places in my skull and aura around my head and throat and heart.

A few times, I experienced serious pain in my head and around my eyes, but didn’t think it was necessarily a bad thing.  It lasted a short while, then seemed to “break through” something – an energy block from some old wound, I assumed – and I immediately began exploring new areas, always on the left side of my head.  (The right side always felt open to sound; it’s the left side that’s always where “my stuff” is.)

Eventually, I found I’d not only made three tones at once, but I’d learned to move them around, make them break through blockages, and become more attractively harmonic!

This morning, I practiced toning again with Greg present, and maybe because I felt shy, I didn’t practice long and could only produce a single overtone – but he heard it!  This thing I thought impossible I can do!

stone peopleSomething else in the video excited me immensely!  In “Song for a New Earth,” Tom recounts a story from young adulthood in which he was mystically drawn into another dimension where he encountered strange beings who asked him if he will “sing the song of the new Earth.”

Being whisked into another dimension is a favorite theme of mine, of course – I love it when others share something that helps me understand my own similar “crazy” stuff.  But I was totally unprepared to see an image – drawn by artists, presumably with Tom’s direction – that nearly perfectly depicts the environment of an extra-dimensional encounter I had in 1999.

I was still healing from the shock of remembering, five years earlier, childhood sexual abuse, but I’d not yet understood I’d also been a mind control subject.  I prayed constantly for information that would help me understand my torment, and one day I was offered the opportunity to go into a terrifying place.

red caveI was suddenly at the mouth of a cave that looked nearly identical to the one drawn for Tom Kenyon!  He met an aboriginal man there twirling a fire stick.  In a similar environment,  I spoke with huge bats that seemed to be part of the cave’s dripstone, which in my vision were thicker so that they blocked more of the view inside than this depiction.  One other difference is that the cave felt like the mouth of a living thing.

The bat people emerged from the living columns near the front where they encouraged me to enter and learn everything I wanted to know about what had happened to me – just what I’d been praying for for years.  In wheedling, syrupy tones, they encouraged and terrified me.  18910-050-28F62F41

Inside the cave I imagined – no, felt – a torture chamber or something equally repugnant, from which I might not find it easy or swift to return.  One part of me tested the idea to “be brave” and enter the passage – but I decided to wait for knowledge and turned away.*

Tom-Kenyon-with-Angels-Animation-Drew-ChristieTom, in his vision of the red cave with the aborigine, when asked whether he would sing the Song of the New Earth, answered he didn’t know.  In this life, of course, his answer has been affirmative.

Watching the video, each time he answered that he didn’t know, I answered aloud, excitedly, “Yes!” and “I will!”  Now, I’m curious to learn what it might mean.  

Greg and Jean photoIt may – for me – mean simply more of what Greg and I already do – sing “good” songs – about love, friendship, home, community, nature, and cosmic mysteries, or the song-and-story sets we’re developing, especially my favorite “cosmic” set with songs of extra-dimensional travel and mystery by Bob Dylan, Jackson BrowJacksonBrowne276n, Neil Young, and so many others who write explicitly or hint about  travel and beings in the multi-dimensional cosmos.

gaiajosephinewallOf course, it’s more too.

I’ve long resonated with a vision I once read, of Earth’s humans, cooperative and aggressive, dividing into two dimensions of future Earth, divided according to their vibrations.

Not divided by doctrine, words, which have been used since the beginning of civilization to tell lies, but in vibrations.  Each of us, human, mountain, and star, singing, harmonizing, creating the vibrating river of Song to the New Earth.


The rest of my week has been almost uneventful, except for one set of small suspicious wounds where the sun don’t shine and one unhappy personal encounter.  We hosted friends for a small potluck-fire-music party one evening, which I love even though I usually get overwhelmed by the numbers of people and then unsure about myself in bouts, even among friends if there are a few, and more overwhelmed if there are a dozen.  Worse, a stranger arrived with a friend I thought knew better and set off my alarms, distracting me off and on for the entirety of the party.  Despite that, we’re feeling blessed and grateful for the gathering in our home!

I’ve decided to tell guests more clearly not to bring others.  (Help?)


* I believe I’ve received enough of that information – in bits and pieces – over the years and, even so, it has often been nearly too much to handle.  Everyone in healing:  We really do need to be careful what we pray for, qualify our prayers [“Thy will be done”], and not push the river.  Psychotic break-downs and suicide can result.  Trust your Helping Spirit Family to guide and pace you in uncovering repressed information.

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TV Lies

The Paradigm Salon

united_states_of_tara_titleI just learned (having not watched TV since 1974) there’s a TV show called “United States of Tara” which depicts a character who supposedly “became multiple” as a teenager (highly unlikely),  whose behavior is highly destructive – also unlikely, since dissociation is an adaption discovered in order to create functionality.

An excellent critique of the show has been written by a therapist of 20 years on her Discussing Dissociation website, here:


Some excerpts:

As a trauma therapist with 20+ years of clinical experience working with multiples, I have to say I’m quite frustrated that Showtime has presented multiplicity in this way.

… there is not a medication that can remove or prevent or end dissociative identity disorder.  Medications can address various symptoms, and can even slow the thinking down, but medication cannot remove multiplicity….

I can understand that the visual presentation of the various alters is metaphorical…

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“The Rebel Jesus” by Jackson Browne

rebel jesus screen shot

If you’ve never heard it, here’s a youtube version:

This is the time of year we pull out a favorite song to perform for a couple of months wherever we can get away with it:  “The Rebel Jesus” by Jackson Browne.

I say “wherever we can get away with it” because the lyrics are beautifully radical, just like Christ.  Here they are:
“The Rebel Jesus” by Jackson Browne
The streets are filled with laughter and light
And the music of the season
And the merchants’ windows are all bright
With the faces of the children
And the families hurrying to their homes
As the sky darkens and freezes
Will be gathering around the hearths and tables
Giving thanks for all God’s graces
And the birth of the rebel Jesusjesus_016They call him by the “Prince of Peace”
And they call him by “The Saviour”
And they pray to him upon the sea
And in every bold endeavor
As they fill his churches with their pride and gold
And their faith in him increases
But they’ve turned the nature that I worshipped in
From a temple to a robber’s den
In the words of the rebel JesusWe guard our world with locks and guns
And we guard our fine possessions
And once a year when Christmas comes
We give to our relations
And perhaps we give a little to the poor
If the generosity should seize us
But if any one of us should interfere
In the business of why there are poor
They get the same as the rebel Jesus

jesus meditatingBut pardon me if I have seemed
To take the tone of judgement
For I’ve no wish to come between
This day and your enjoyment
In this life of hardship and of earthly toil
We have need for anything that frees us
So I bid you pleasure and I bid you cheer
From a heathen and a pagan
On the side of the rebel Jesus.


Blessed Holidays, Everyone.

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“The Union: The Business Behind Getting High” – great (free) video

culture-high1Last week, I wrote about the video, “Culture High” – a wonderful online view!  I thought it was free, but it actually cost $4.99.  Still, we were totally impressed and learned more than we expected to.

513JbnGZ2QLNow, we discover that an earlier video by the same folks IS free:  “The Union:  The Business Behind Getting High.”  An “official selection in 33 international film festivals,” and winner in a few, it explains the marijuana business and laws that don’t accomplish any purported goal of protecting us from pot – but it does cost taxpayers and it does put lots of people of color behind bars.  I saw only this one glaring omission in this video, and that was its ignoring this terrible fact:  the racism of enforcement, which the video barely alluded to but didn’t speak.  Still:  highly recommended!