I was supposed to see a new doctor on Tuesday, but the night before they sent me an extremely long agreement I was supposed to sign with numerous sections requiring my initials throughout.

In the first section, there were some paragraphs I didn’t like. In the second section there were more, including one that gave them permission to audio and videotape me but forbade me from audio or videotaping them.

Next they promise to give us copies of our files except for anything they might write that had to do with psychology or psychiatry. I once told a psychologist I thought I was a mind control subject, and while he never responded and we never talked further about it, he wrote delusional in my file, and that has dogged me ever after.

Given my status as a mind control subject, this felt threatening. So the next morning I expressed uncertainty about signing it to the check-in person, and I was not allowed to have my appointment that morning.

The truth is, I trust modern medicine as practiced in the United States for its emergency care and diagnostics, but I do not trust it for its prevention advice or treatment. For those needs, I see a naturopath.

So I’m crafting a letter to thank the system very much for its opportunity to avail myself of its services, but I will decline their offer.

I will pay for my own healthcare and state publicly in every way possible that I refuse CPR, intubation, or any hospital admission. My angels will take care of me, or I will pass on to the next life.